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*Cassandra*
Aim to live my life to the fullest!


LOVES
- God
- To Eat
- To Sleep
- Dog


HATES
- Xiao Qiang
- Xiao Nui


Wish-List
- ?G (cheap) external hard disk
- Go uni (overseas?) (:( got to wait for at least 2 years)
- Taiwan chase chase chase
- Mission trip this year??
- laptop :)



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Sian Dao Bu Xing!!

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Kao!!!! me still burning with fever. never in my life my fever is so hard to go off. it keeps coming on and off. medicine didn't seems to help..........

anyway went to see doc again today, then shocking news................. he announced me as ?dengue then ask me to observe for rashes and joint pain. Sian diao lor, cos if i really zhong right, i will really be in hospital, as a patient not working..... :(

the main sian diao issue is that, today is the opening night for EMERGE 2007!!!!!! for the past 5 years i could not attend much so i make up my mind to attend at least 2 sessions despite of my working schedule then finally by right today is my off day, can go then i sick......... :(

Not getting any younger lor......................................... :(

Sob...... Sob........ Sob.....


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Kao!! Lao Lu Ming!!

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Sian diao!!! Today finally got day off then i sick, wan to rest also cant.............

It seems like i really cannot rest, the moment i slow down my pace or simply rest, some part of my body will start to stop functioning....................... :(

Running fever now, 38.5!!!!!

Arhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1


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Not fated to have pet!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Sad, Sad, My gong gong bit dai dai to death..........

I ming ming seperated them but how gong gong (the male one) break free???? The only way i could think of is he actually climbed his way over the other side.......... the seperation wall is as tall as the cage lor.......... By the time i returned from work, Dai dai is dead............ she was so gentle lor.......................... :(

Sori, Rong Jian and Jing Kai, i didnt keep up to my promise to take care of them..........

Sigh....................


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More of Him and Less of me!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

After going through the sermons of the mount, i have learnt a lot and truly, my attitudes will determine how high i will venture........

Just has this thought, just feel that believers now, join us not really becos of God but for the excitement and fun and entertainment. It will be good if good if eventually they come to meet God face to face and stay on...........

Sometimes, i do wonder, where is my first love for God, is it still as strong as before???? Do i still pray, fast and serve for the sake of doing so or out of love and desire for my salvation???? Times are a little diff now. Look at Pastor Kong and the leaders in Church, they are so full of love and commitment with God. But of cos, we cant compare us with them, but just examine our hearts, do we still love Him with all our heart, mind and soul????? Are we distracted with our work, family, friends, etc???? Where do we stand, in His kingdom......... This tot, just came back: - If Jesus return this very moment, do i have the faith and right to tell Him that i have completed your will on earth. Do i stand with Him???

These few weeks had taught me to face my heart like never before, of cos at times of conviction, i am forced to examine my heart and views over and over again......... So where do i really stand, in God's Kingdom, in the church, in CG, in ministry??????

Sometimes, when God knocks at your door, you do not hear so didn't open, or when you seek Him, could He be found??? So how????????

It just breaks my heart to see ppl leaving God for stupid reasons, maybe these reasons are very big to them but isn't God more important than anything else on earth??? Don tell me, after all these while, they do not experience Him in one way or another???? Y do ppl always seek God in trouble times and ask God to do things for them but seldom ask God what can they do for God....... And they start blaming God for the bad things that happened to them but seldom thank Him for the good things that happened???

I have seen ppl come n gone becos of many many reasons, things like, bgr, po, $$, failure, out of love....... but all these can be overcome by preservation and hanging on lor..... but it was not easy to say n do.....

sigh..... sigh.....


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Shift work, sian, sigh......


Finally, me starting the actual shift work following my preceptor..... i was hoping to get another preceptor who i can relate more to but hmmm, God's will. Actually she is ok lah, got lots of experience and fun??? yet to explore...... well, just do my best for i am to be the salt and light of the world....... kee kee kee......

well, this time round i am a little scare partly becos the date to wear the green uniform is getting nearer and nearer. Also, i am not with this gal who i am always with.... This gal is smart both in IQ and EQ, through her, i have learnt alot about myself and life...... i little unsteady when she is not with me this time round......... So, wishing her all the best as she is placed in a ward that is so bad...... it is her worst nightmare coming through...... Anyway, knowing her character, i know she will pull through no matter what...... So add oil Gal!!!!!! my shoulders are always ready for your use!!!! :)


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New members added into the family!!!


Kee Kee, finally i can get over the fact that my dog has really gone (li jia chu zhou). :( He ran away from home!!! :( :( :( so ever since, i don dare to keep anymore pet.

So, finally, i gathered all my courage to take in 2 little hamsters......

Welcoming!!!!!! Gong Gong and Dai Dai!!!!!!!! (the 3rd generation) [note: the first two generation has passed away]

All thanks to Jing Kai (for picking the hamsters) and Rong Jian (for temporary storage) + his sister (for food)..........................

;p a little happy now, but at the same time, :( cos they FIGHT!!!!!

:( cos i wan many many generations of gong gong dai dai, if they keep fighting like that how to breed?????? should i consider getting another husband for my dai dai???????

anyway just thoughts, hope things will work out well!!!


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Finally, last lap liao

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Wow!!! Finally last lap liao!!! 2 yrs really passed like crazy lor!!!

So now finally posting then break then SN. Yeah! my dream come true liao!!!

Still having problem in where to choose. to stay in ward or to OT. Sister wans me to stay at ward level to help but OT is opening up which is a rare chance also. How????? Last minute then still have problem. i am very happy in both lor, still awaiting for confirmation from God to where to go though :(

To stay in a more comfortable area or to venture out in the wliderness ??????

Just finished my 3-day course, going back to work is chore cos these 3-days very the relax lor....... next week starting my shift work liao, really SN shift timing lor!!!! Siao, meaning, working during weekends and public holiday, hmmmm, frankly speaking, that is the down side that i really have problem letting go off.......

Recently, God had really convicted my heart as in how a believer i really am, Thank God for speaking and really moulding me to become who He wan me to be. :) so the quiet time these days are getting more and more interesting :)

Never give up Yo!!! Add Oil, Cassandra!


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You know who you are! Stop reading this!!!

Monday, May 21, 2007

Recently, i am pretty upset about a friend...... :( don know what is wrong with her lor, so the blog thing is quite useful for me and my friends to communicate even though we are very busy with our own life.

Anyway, it so happened that when we are exchanging our blog-name during one gathering, a typical friend just mentioned that she does not have one, and even if she has it, she shall not disclose to anyone cos its very personal........ Fine, its yr on-line records anyway, she we happily missed her out but little did we know she had remember our blog-names by hard or link us from other friends or what lor, she is able to access and read out blogs........ Hmmm, not a big fuss or deal really, just that does not like that feeling of one-way commnuication, it always take 2 hands to clap lor.............. But due to the busy schedule, i really didnt pay much attention to this issue.......

Until one find day, my friend send me her link to her blog, so happily, i clicked and read her entry.......... To my horror! her entries are nothing but comments from our entries....... >o< Kao!!!!!! Things like, "I think i know who Cassandra is talking about when she blew up. Aiyo, I would say its Cassandra's fault too. Who ask her to so bad-tempered!!! Bet she will not have many friends out there cos all ran away from her to seek shelter. But she hoh, also hopeless lor, despite our many many talks, she still does not think that she needs to change, for sure she is going to remain like that, single ugly, fat, useless, sad..........................................."

I mean, Dur!!!!!!!! Kao!!!!! not only me, but she practically, she commented everyones entries in her blog, every single entry carries a negative side of us but a very positive side of her It is very not nice lor, she breached the trust as a friend lor!!! I almost blew up!!!! Thank God again! this time i really wan to just call her and adress her zhu zhong shi ba dai! This is too much lor, don ask me how my this friend managed to obtain her blog-name, but this is a shock for all my friends. Sadly, the decision is that we shall not confront her, we have forgiven her and her actions just hoping that she will not doing again! BUT, that decision was just among the few of us, she will not know that she is doing something very bad to us until that was state clear for her!!!! Something else need to be done!

Though we may not be friends again, so if you happen to ready my entries, My Friend (The last time i am going to call you that), please repent on your actions and stop doing it! It is really not very nice to read then comment them that way, though u may think that its your own blog, her personal one, but my friend, again, paper cannot wrapped around fire, u will get burnt eventually. So but stop will you still can........


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Sleepy Sleepy

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Ha this week is morning through out!!! so still sleep late and had to wake up early! so finally tmr can sleep till don know what time, hopefully can wake up naturally ba. Muhahahah!!!!!!!

Ok, xiao Zhou is calling again liao!!!!!

Zzz................ Zzz................ Zzz..................


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Days in Rehab


hmmm, this is a bit out-dated, i went to 2 day of rehab....................... terrible terrible experience......

though God is really nice and good that He always brings me to enjoy different walks, phases of life and come out with many many challenges to test me................................ So come what may lor :)

Anyway, after hearing some good news from others who have been running about i am suffering from culture shock during my first day. First impression is that i have come back to IMH (which is really hell) again, just that the patients here are mentally sound but require assistance to move about.

this is my first time that i had an argument with the staff there, i already try my very best to control my mountain from blowing up. but anyway, yup i blew!!!! cos he is really too much, he really bully students to the core lor........ he really took advantages of the presence of students there (both NYP and ITE) to do the "shit-work" that he is supposed to complete.............. irritating guy to the core!


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Must be broken before use


Wow!!! so fast its Friday again!!!! hmmm, ga-na "suan" by cg members for the past mistakes...... hahahaha!!!! its ok lah, me also blur blur, sometimes forget mah, me old liao!!!! BUT now trying to keep up the speed Muhahahaha!!!!!!

2 years down the road, so fast, really, blink blink of the eyes and i am almost done with my studies........ 6 more weeks of attachment then i am wearing green uniform liao!!!!! A bit strange on the feelings tat i have, 2 years before i wan time to past so fast, but now coming near world's end, hmmm.... can time go backwards or slow down????? OF COS NO LAH!!!!!

but today's word and presence is super good lor, we need to bring along a po sui de xin and humble ourself to be used by God..................... only when u r broken then works can be donw within and around u. So to all out there, add oil yo!!!!

Me sleepy liao couldnt cheng longer, eyelids are closing liao, Xiao Zhou is calling me................


Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


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Tired le

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Ha, ha, finally medical posting is over. Yeah!!! :( cos the in-charge there keep asking me to go back which i really don wan to cos will be super duper stress one lor. It is an environment that only allows u to sink or swim. sigh.......................

>.<>

two more days before another busy weekend............................... was told the 2 days are heaven cos very relax one lor............................

Yeah!!! can enjoy!! Muhahahaha!!!!!


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Summary of the week

Monday, May 14, 2007

Ha another week has passed......... sian liao, cos more and more near to my dreams.......

anyway, an update over the week, Mother's Day dinner n dinner n dinner........... eat till me tummy super big...... muhahaha!!!!!!

Sermons of the Mount is really great, should encourage those who missed to catch up and try to go for all sessions. think i will try to go for all except serving days........... :( but its ok lah, shold be able to catch up one lor..... God is good!! well benefited from just the first four sessions liao!!! Jesus you are who i live for!!!!!

the results for my posting still not put yet. very excited in where God puts me cos in certain wards are really challanging man............

Arhhhh, just talking to some friends and family over the weekends on where to go during my holidays....... not decided yet....... to go for missions or to go for holiday........ i know both can enjoy one lor.........

ok, thats more or less what happened last week, nothing much.................. this is life!!!

Muhahahaha!!!!


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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

This is to sharon,

I need help!!!! how to i change the song huh??? i bit sian liao...... BTW, how do i put up the player thing (similar to tat u had in your blog) and my posting "create" a bit siao lor, i coulf not add color to my text, could not change the font and size........

pls help, sweet tian shi........ since u so free in your work, if not teach me on friday, k

Love u, cass, :p


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She is too much lor!!!!


Ahrrr!!!! Bad day, almost address other's 18 dai zhu xian liao. kao, me still so mean..........
but really cant stand her liao mah.....

Incident 1: -

We report work at 1pm, so the moment i saw her, (she morning and i afternoon shift.), before i get myself settled down, she approached me:

She: "Cassandra, I am not going to help you to do parameters in the afternoon cos i had asked for permission to read the casenotes."

Me: "It's ok, i don think i need your help either." (inside my heart, a bit pist liao cos i have not start anything, she already draw the line, which i don mind either cos i can do work in peace.)

Incident 2: -

we are suppose to meet our CI at 2pm today, so after informing my in-charge, i called her to meet the CI together, little did i know:

She: "Oh, CI said she very busy today, so she is not meeting us."

Me: "Oh, ok, thanks." (Kao, y last min then tell me, could have told me when she saw me at 1pm what.)

Incident 3: -

5 mins before 3pm, a time which we usually knocked off if you are in the morning shirt, a patient asked for a bedpan (one that you use to urine or shit when you are confined to the bed.), she actually said:

She: "Oh, i am sorry, i am about to leave this place liao, i will ask her (pointing to me) to bring you.)" happily she walked to me and instructed me to do the task tat she was supposed to do in the first place.

She (to me): "Cassandra, this patient needs a bedpan now, pls take it for her." (I am in the mist of doing something urgent also, one that i could not stop.)

Me: "(I am really pisted.) Cant u see that i am doing something now, cant u just take one for the patient."

She: "But i am leaving in 5 mins time"

Me: "(really pisted) But walking and taking one will not take you 5 mins right, you can walk a bit faster right, you can even run if you like to since you are in such a rush."

She: "But....." (she still can but lor)

[eventually a SN came over and said, its ok, she will bring one over.]

Incident 4: -

This time, she is too much, big time, she treats me this way, i could take it cos i know her pattern, but she could even treat the in-charge with the same manner and attitude.

SN: "Student, could you help me change this patient?"

She: "Sorry, i am due to leave in 5 mins time and i had washed my hands liao. I can ask Cassandra to help you." "Cassandra, that SN needs you to help her change the patient."

Me: "(Still a bit suprised by her reply to SN and not replying to her, i speak directly to the SN) Staff, i will help you once i clear this mess (since i had completed my task liao), but deep inside, i am boiling liao.

So during the changing, (by this time, she leave liao cos past 3pm.), SN actually ask me why is my friend behaving this way? is this her working attitude? to leave on the dot? cant even stay for 10 to 15mins? what if the patient she is in-charge collapse at 2.59pm? I just acted blur and not replying any of her questions, just say "Err..... Don know leh....."

Kao, this ward already a bit anti-student becos of some incidents done by other batches and here we are to build back the rapport with the staff there, and there she go and destroy it. One for one lor, it does not matter to them if you are diff cos as long as you are in the student uniform u will be treated the same by them. At least, i am quite ok, though i am still a bit blur with the things there, but at least i don give these kind of attitude......

Wah, really super boiling lor............................................


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The choice is yours :)

Saturday, May 5, 2007

Ha, finally no regrets watching spiderman-3, 140mins, some parts a bit dragly almost fall asleep. but managed to catch few good movie previews, all which are must watch. Boom! to my pocket.

Anyway, watching spiderman-3, the only idea that keep flashing is that "the choice is yours". in life there are so many different things and paths that require us to make different choices, old ppl say: take a wrong step = u will regret it for life. True u know, like spiderman, who choose to live in vengerness is led to do stupid things to those who loved and he loved most.

that reminds of one of sun's song, chun tian de x x, in which there is a line - di yu tian tang, kan ni zhe me xiang. All in all, its all up to ones thinking in making decisions. some ppl, don think at all, some ppl think too much, some just think almost there, but we all at certain times make wrong decisions in one way or another lor.

like what xiao bei said - ren huo zai zhe ge shi jie shang, dou you yi ge meng. dai de xiao de, dou shi meng. zhi yao ren ren zhen zhen qu zhou mei yi jian shi, mian dui mei ge tiao zhan, zhi yao you nu li guo, you chang shi guo, zhe yang, shen ming jiu mei you yi han le............. (for those who sian in reading or catch no ball, it means = everyone who lives has a dream, big or small, as long as you put in your very best in everything that u do, and tried all that you could think of, then you can live your life with no regrets, ie live your lifeto the fulless. :))

how i wish i can turn my time over and undone the past mistakes that i have planted. but nope, fat hope, no one can go back into the past u just have to keep you eyes forward and see the future....... remember God created eyes to be in front. muhahahaha!!!!!

Kao, y am i quoting what ppl say, no creativity at all. ok lah, type until i don know what i am typing liao.


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Boring! At a total loss!

Friday, May 4, 2007

Today is my 2nd rest day, the last day to rest before i get super busy over the weekend (mama's day) - i have 3 mama for heaven's sake.................

kao...... really dazed...... got fly areoplane again by my friend........ KAOzzzzz

ha ha ha so change of plan to pack my super messy room, but instead me sitting in front of computer to blog!!!!! siao!!!! kao!!! Bish bish myself....... sleepy anyway its friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watching superman, ha ha sudden tot of a "leng" joke, what color is spiderman?????
Blue? Red? mix red and blue? black?


XXXX. the correct ans is WHITE!! cos "Shi-BAI-de-man" muhahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

another one, What is the ultimate wish for a panda??????
eat more? play more? bu bin ling jue zhong?


XXXX. the correct ans is Take a color photograph!! OR Sleep more to sleep away the dark circles...... muhahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps: these 2 leng jokes are just my tots, so if u heard that b4 are just plain chun shu qiao he, ok. not copy-right involved!!!!!


Kao, i really bo-liao...... getting lamer and lamer liao...... beta start get somethng to do or read before i get worst........ :) or vefore i start getting sick!!!! Kao, bad body, cannot relax for a while, once i get relax of nothing to do, siao i start getting sick...... sigh....... lao lu ming yo!!!!!



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Finally, Its done :) :) :)

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Ha ha ha ........ Finally its over!!!! My Exams all clear (i hope!) Anyway, time really files lor, 2 yrs ago, at this time i was still wondering to chase after my dreams or to stay in my comfort zone, well it seems that i have made quite a big step. 2 years ago, still blur blur nerd nerd in school, now actually have not much sad feeling in leaving NYP.........................................

2 yrs are not too long, either is it too short............. many things had happened, good or bad, happy or sad, but i believed all things happened for certain reasons some of which may not been revealed as clearly as before. Anyway, Thank God for his strength and grace for all these while........... ;p ;p ;p

Final paper today, didnt sleep at all just to cover the 3-in-1 topics, maybe because i very tired or what i could not remember what i study, i just went blank!!!!! *o*....... Siao liao lor, anyway, the topics for SAQ also a bit not familiar, - after doing the assessment which confirmed that i had depression, i had an AMI which still hurts, so how will u manage this problem........... more *o*.....

Ha Ha, today, i went to have a mini class lunch and finally able to fellowship with some "constantly-missing-personnel". i went shopping with Venus and nor after that and bought 2 pairs of shoes in which one was at half price. So happy, (a bit bu chang my bad moods) cos i had found a very comfortable heels..... decided to wear on service provided it won rain............................ speaking of rain, nowadays very the strange, my area seems to like to rain at 3am, with thunderstorm some more, disturbing.... Also some, Korean tidbits, if you guys have time, should visit square2 sometimes, another far-east lor, but only pertaining to the 1st and 2nd flr, 3rd and 4th are more to the Korean stuff. Best thing is that after i bought the tidbits, i went to the NTUC at 4th level, i discovered that i could actually find the exact same tidbits in NTUC at a cheaper rate (actually only 20-40 cents cheaper)

Oi, Venus, my name is Cassandra, not Carss!!!!! ;p ;p ;p Bish Bish Bish....... (Me not angry, don worry) Really, it is quite all right to say good bye to NYP, but when i come to think that when we all venture into diff speciality and areas and could not meet up as often due to shift work, that is a little disheartening.................... after all, we have all been brothers and sisters all these while and all my good friends are at other hospitals, well at least i can say to myself its comforting cos i get to work alone in peace. :( i miss all of you already!!! :( Sob, Sob

Cant wait to watch Spider-man 3, heard there is a 4th coming out, kao, if its so, then never ends.............

Ok, got to end liao, super headache, tmr still got long day to go............ must make full use of these few days to get recharge.......

Add oil yo! ;p


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