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- Go uni (overseas?) (:( got to wait for at least 2 years)
- Taiwan chase chase chase
- Mission trip this year??
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Finally a dream phone......

Sunday, October 28, 2007



Actually wanted to buy Sony Ericson's W880i but was told by many many users that the phone sucks to the max....... so there goes my 1st dream phone......

cos i tried most of the brand except for LG (which i will never try and Sony Ericson's) so happily i went to get my phone today.....

hurray!!!!!!!!!

But the color is kinda off but I'll get used to it one lor..... but now its going to take time to get used to tat phone..... cos i had history of almost, i said almost throwing my friend phone away just by trying to type a simple message......



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今天真黑!!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

今天真黑!!!

今天不是普通的黑咯!!!

1) 差点起不来,差点迟到
2) 没早餐吃
3) 又被医生骂
4) 自己乱了方向
5) 午餐吃的很不happy,虽有人请不过是吃的毛毛的
6) 回来之后,我是最后一个被通知我的instrument set 出了问题,不知who在SABO,搞这种事出来,弄到来还要写MEMO, 这会让我的名声掉到不知几点
7) "姐姐" 做错事,结果我来抗议:(
8) 电脑又要耍我, 跑的不是普通的慢
9) 想让自己happy,就买了 ice-cream来吃,还没吃完就被两个小瓜打翻了
10) 晚餐时,妈妈的菜有虫虫

今天不是普通的黑啊!!!


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当你离开的时候

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

我只能低着头发呆
让回忆渗透脑袋渐渐变空白

我把它当做个意外
但内心还想不开
因为我明白其实你都还在
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有

当你离开的时候
我可以当作已释怀
他对我也算关怀他看不出来
我知道这样不应该在他身上找依赖
算不算是种出卖因为你一直在
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔我
想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有

越是没用力越是心痛
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有当你离开的时候


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I survived 3 months liao!!!


Kao!!! time really fly man, so fast...........

Really lor, remember the time when we are still in patho lab (now going under demo or reno) about 3 months ago and we sitting at the back row sleeping in a row like a log......

sigh........ now we are 3 months old liao......... though we are not confirmed yet (probation is 6 months lor), after we are the senior-junior liao ha ha ha

anyway more expectation on our shoulder liao........ SIAN man....... my sister in charge expect me to go solo liao............ STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But God is good all the way and all the way God is good........


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Cant wait for saturday

Monday, October 22, 2007

hmmm....... cant wait for saturday for the gathering.........

ha ha ha now more ppl are like me liao must have booking at least a month ago liao.......... kee kee kee

hmmm, have not been seeing u guys for hmmm..... so long liao...... (is it tot ots only a month) anyway, glad that we are meeting up again, how good it will be if we can org more of this more often....... K?

Oh no i already been missing Nor's cooking liao, pls God pls pls pls let there be my fav dish - curry chicken......... pls God pls


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The Lake House Vs Il Mare

Saturday, October 13, 2007



Oh man, just finished watching "The Lake House" which is a long overdue movie for me.....


it a great film in 2006 which is or was a remake of the korean version of Il Mare in 2000..... starring Jun Ji-hyun and Jung-Jae both are my fav......... i prefer the korean one though but the eng one staring Keanu Reeves (afer he slimed down) and Sandra Bullock. The finally got paired up after Speed in 1994 which is oh my God, 10 over years liao.......


Il Mare (시월애, Siworae) means 'The Sea' in Italian and is the name of the seaside house which is the setting of the story. The Korean title, siworae is the Korean pronunciation of Hanja"時越愛," meaning "time-transcending love."


Lovely isnt it, 2 person from diff time zone get to know n fall in love n be realistic abt life then finally get together after going through the fear of losing each other......... Which is beta, a love that stand through time and testing or one that goes off after time.........


Actually, i like the house best, both the eng and korean version...... if i can afford to buy or build the ni think i can live in one for retirement..........
Summary of Il-Mare: -

The story begins with Eun-joo moving out of a house by the sea called "Il Mare". As she is leaving, she leaves a Christmas card in the mailbox, asking the next resident to please forward her mail to her. Sung-hyun, an architectural student, receives her card, but is puzzled, since he is the first resident at "Il Mare" and the card is dated 2 years in the future. After a series of back and forth correspondences, Eun-joo and Sung-hyun realize they are living 2 years apart, Eun-joo in the year 2000 and Sung-hyun in the year 1998. After some testing, Eun-joo and Sung-hyun discover that the mailbox at "Il Mare" is enabling their communication and they can pass objects through it.Utilizing the mailbox, Eun-joo asks Sung-hyun to retrieve a tape player she lost two years ago, which he gets for her. After his father, a noted architect, dies, Sung-hyun asks Eun-joo to buy a book about his father, which she does. They decide to try a date together, with each person participating in his or her own time. Eun-joo "takes" Sung-hyun to an amusement park, where he follows her instructions on how to have a good time at the park. Sung-hyun "takes" her to a restaurant where she drinks a bottle of wine he left for her two years ago. Despite having a lot of fun on these "dates", they decide that they should try to meet in person.
Eun-joo and Sung-hyun plan on meeting in person at a beach where she has always wanted to build a house, two years in Sung-hyun's future. However, when Eun-joo goes to the beach, Sung-hyun doesn't show. She does see a house being built on the beach for an unknown architect's lover. When Eun-joo tells Sung-hyun that he didn't come, he is baffled about why he didn't show up; he doesn't think he would have forgotten such an important date. At Eun-joo's work, she runs into her ex-fiance. They were going to get married, but he moved abroad for work, while she stayed in Korea. Due to the separation, they eventually broke up and he married another person; however, Eun-joo still loves him. This meeting shocks Eun-joo and in an act of desperation, she asks Sung-hyun to intervene and stop her fiance from leaving two years in the past. After sending the letter to Sung-hyun, Eun-joo suddenly realizes, on that day, she witnessed a car striking a pedestrian and killing him. Eun-joo rushes to Sung-hyun's architectural school and finds out that Sung-hyun was that pedestrian and the house being built at the beach was designed by Sung-hyun for her. She immediately rushes to the mailbox and sends a letter telling him not to go. The final scene returns to the beginning of the movie, where Eun-joo is about to place her Christmas card into the mailbox at "Il Mare". A stranger approaches her with a letter in his hand, the letter that Eun-joo sent warning Sung-hyun not to go to the meeting. Sung-hyun did receive her warning letter and never went to intervene that day and was never hit by the car. Although this Eun-joo (the one who twice ignores him at the train station) has no memory of the correspondence, Eun-joo and Sung-hyun finally meet.

Summary of Lake House: -
The movie centers around lonely Dr. Kate Forster who, on a winter morning in 2006, reluctantly leaves the beautiful lake house where she has been living for a job in a Chicago hospital. On her way to Chicago, she leaves a note for the lake house's new tenant asking him to kindly forward her mail and telling him the paw prints by the front door and the box in the attic were there when she moved in.
However, Alex Wyler, the new tenant and an Architect, sees a different lake house, one which was neglected, dirty, and with certainly no paw prints and no box in the attic. He disregards Kate's letter until a few days later; he is painting the handrails on the walkway to the house and a stray dog runs through the paint tray leaving paw prints where Kate said they would be. He runs back into the lake house and re-reads her letter. He writes back to Kate, wanting to know more about the paw prints and leaves the letter in the mailbox.
Meanwhile, after witnessing a horrible accident where a bus hits and kills a man, Kate needs some time away so she visits the lake house. Nobody appears to be living there, but she notices the mail box flag is up. She finds a letter addressed to her from Alex but dated 2004. In her second letter to Alex, Kate writes: "Oh, by the way it is 2006. Has been all year, ask anyone." Kate mentions she is presently [in 2006] living at 1620 North Racine in Chicago. Alex goes to that address [in 2004], with the intention of personally delivering a letter to her at her apartment, and discovers that an unfinished construction site exists at 1620 North Racine. Alex estimates that the site will not be finished for another 18 months. They begin to understand they are living 2 years apart: he in 2004 and she in 2006. The lake house, its enchanted mailbox, and the stray dog (whom Kate has named Jack, even though Jack is a female) are the only things linking them together.
As Kate and Alex continue to correspond through the mailbox, they find themselves falling in love. Because Kate is in the future, she can tell Alex specific places to look for her in 2004. On one occasion, she asks Alex to bring her back something important (a gift from her father; her favorite novel by Jane Austen called Persuasion), which she left two years ago during a train station meeting with her then-beau, Morgan. Alex goes to the station and finds the item and sees Kate with long hair. Even though he has the item, he does not place it in the mailbox to return it to her. Instead, he says that he will return it to her personally, "one way or the other." Alex sends her a personalized map of Chicago and takes her on a walking tour of his favorite places in the city one Saturday morning. He leaves her a loving message on a brick wall at the end written in 2004, that she sees in 2006. The message was "Kate, I am here with you. thank you for spending this Saturday together". The word "together" was written because Kate would have loved it if Alex were there to walk with her.
Late one afternoon, as Alex's female suitor Mona is flirting with him and Alex is ignoring her advances, Jack runs off. Alex chases Jack across town and ends up at Kate's boyfriend Morgan's house. Mona catches up with Alex and Jack, and Morgan invites them to Kate's surprise birthday party. At the party, Kate is frustrated with Morgan's sincere but smothering ways. Alex walks outside on the porch and finds Kate alone, and he begins to talk to her. Alex would like to let this earlier version of Kate know that her "letter paramour" is here in person. Kate does not know who Alex is, as their relationship is in her future. However, the two share a dance and a romantic moment, but it is interrupted by Morgan and Mona.
Later, they discuss the birthday party, and she reveals to Alex that she liked him that night. This is the first time she remembers what he looks like.
Crisis enters Alex's life when his estranged father, a brilliant and renowned Architect, has a heart attack and shortly thereafter dies. Kate somehow discovers his death certificate at the time he dies. She rushes to the mailbox and as a gift to Alex, she places a book in the mailbox: a tribute to Alex's father that Kate has obtained, not yet published in Alex's time. Alex weeps over his lost father.
Determined to bridge the distance between them at last and unravel the mystery behind their extraordinary connection, they tempt fate by arranging to meet. Alex makes a reservation in 2004 for a date in 2006 at Il Mare, a fancy restaurant (an homage to the original Korean motion picture), but only Kate appears. Alex does not show up. The next day Kate writes Alex a letter telling Alex of this fact, but he doesn't understand. "Something must have happened" he responds. Kate retreats, believing she will never have happiness. She urges Alex to move on. She tells him about Valentine's Day 2006 when a man died "in her arms", and that she needs to live her own life. She asks Alex not to contact her again. Alex leaves her a growing pile of letters in the mailbox that she never retrieves. He is brokenhearted and decides to leave the lake house. He places the box in the attic that Kate referred to in her first letter.
Alex appears to Morgan (his truck packed for his move to the city) and hands him the keys to the lake house. At this time Jack the dog seems to be left with Morgan and now becomes Kate's dog. Alex drives off.
He moves to Chicago. Kate renews her relationship with Morgan, but doesn't appear to be happy. She and Alex do not exchange letters as Kate no longer goes to the mailbox. Almost one year passes.
One afternoon, Kate is watching an old movie in one room of her Chicago apartment while Morgan is working in another room. They are apparently living together. Perturbed when Morgan asks her to turn the TV down, she turns it off, and irritated, walks into their bedroom where a squeaky floorboard finally gets her attention. She stomps on it and it completely comes off revealing a small package hidden underneath. It is her Jane Austen book that Alex has carefully left for her. He has left a flower marking a specific piece of text that touches Kate's heart. She realizes she still loves Alex.
New Year Eve 2005 finds Alex at some party sadly overlooking the city. It is New Year's Eve 2007 for Kate.
On Valentine's Day 2008, Kate and Morgan arrange to meet at an architectural firm unknowingly owned by Alex's brother, Henry. They are renovating an old house. As they exit Kate notices a drawing on the wall of the lake house and inquires as to its artist. When told it is Alex Wyler, she asks as to his whereabouts and is told he died in an accident 2 years ago this day. This explains why Alex didn't show up at the Il Mare. He had already "died." What Kate didn't realize was she left Alex a clue (in 2006 that he read in 2004) as to her future whereabouts, a clue that would not click in until that warm day on February 14, 2006 (at Daley Plaza) and would have devastating consequences. But this date (in Kate's time) is just when Alex and Kate started the correspondence at the lake house. She had left him only 1 letter, but for Alex, 2006 means he has "known" Kate for 2 years already. The only memory Kate has of Alex at this point is at her birthday party at Morgan's house when she danced and then kissed Alex to the Paul McCartney song, "This Never Happened Before".
On Valentine's Day 2006 Alex and his brother Henry are walking outside and a comment is made about the unusually warm weather. When Alex asks his brother go out later, Henry tells him he has other plans with his girlfriend Vanessa. It is, after all, Valentine's Day. Something clicks in Alex's head and he takes off for the lake house and retrieves a specific letter. He knows where Kate is going to be that day and intends on finding her.
The 2008 Kate has also put everything together and dashes out of the office and races to the lake house to frantically warn Alex via the mailbox that HE is the man who "died in her arms" that day. She does not know if he will receive it in time or not. She tells him NOT to go to the plaza but to wait 2 years and go to the lake house where she is now. For the first time she expresses her love for him. He receives the letter in time, and sees her in the plaza, and changing history, does NOT cross the street and escapes his original fate. Kate, weeping at the mail box, hears somebody drive up to the lake house. It is an older Alex. She tearfully says "you waited" before being cut off as Alex kisses her. In the end of the movie, Alex and Kate walk into the lake house together.


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Planning to buy..... "Ice-Cream maker"

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Ha ha, just tot to myself......

since i love ice-cream so very the much..... Y don i find a cheap ice-cream maker and make ice-cream myself.....

just think of it, using fresh frozen fruits n yogurt i can simply combine anything to everything.....

Not bad right.....

ok, it shall be done.... cheap ice-cream maker should be on my shopping list very the soon


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Eating too much....


Sigh........ Finally lose some weight over the last 2 month but ................

Been eating like a big fat pig lately, think whatever is gone came back n find me liao.......

must work harder lor..... wat to do, its always the later part of the half year that i have lots of dinner appt and worst, been self-comforting myself with lots of ice-cream......


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Life goes on

Monday, October 8, 2007

Today happen to meet him on the streets...................

Actually its he spotted me not that i can see him anyway..........

I thought running away the moment he called me but suprisingly i stood still and managed to come out with a simple "Hi" and "How are you lately"......... Guess what i think i did see wrongly or perhaps i didnt, i saw guilt in his eyes....... Guilt in cosing so much pain in me or guilt in doing wrong to me........ Which ever, to my suprise i finally can let go, but not really let go = let go but at the very least i think i can face him without much problem.........

Though the wound still needs time to heal but its still a wound that can be healed with much time provided.........

So Thank you God for His strength to carry on and move on as the world still moves on even when u stayed put in one small area trapping and isolating yourself from the rest of the world...... only opening up and letting go pushes ppl forward........................

hopefully very the soon, i can picked up from where i have fallen and moved on........



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Nanny Diaries

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Ha ha ha Me a nanny go and watch a nanny show......

anyway watched it with the rest of the nanny in church which includes my nanny da-jie-jie as well as some other nanny co-workers.........

rating: hmmm........ 7.5/10 only

Its kinda of funny, but to me it only rubbed my funny bones and does not stayed for too long...... but my other nanny laugh their heads out............ anyway spotted other movies that we wan to watched together (hopefully) if not i'll watch with others kee kee kee

Oh after that, we actually went and had our dinner, Auntie actually travelled down to join us for dinner so sweet of her...... had my fav fish soup rice steamboat (with free rice) but too bad their standard dropped and the funny thing is that they managed to open 1 or 2 more new outlets in i think Vivo and don know where AMK??

Hmmm..... lessons learnt.......

1) Once you get attached, its very diff to get detached (nanny to boy)
2) Once u are pre-occupied with your problems, u cant see the solutions or cant see the ones u should treasure. (Mama to husband n could not see his son)
3) Don push everything to nanny (unless u are a type C)
4) Living out LOUD...... Live your life to the fullest...... U do not live for parents, boss, husband, you only live for God and yourself.......... so make every single day the best day ever (nanny decides to go all out to study U in a very leng-men degree which her mama wans her to be a banker)
5) Though we may not be physically around together but it does not mean we stopped loving one another (on the beach at night, nanny told son)
6) To love, to trust and to make this world a little easy to live in..... (that is my own)


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My MP 4 goes Bonkers


Sad.... Sad.... finally got a MP4 and then it goes bonkers suddenly today........

much data lost to don know where.......

Sad..... Sad....


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God is here and there and everywhere!!

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Today is CG........

a long waited day to see the guys again...... don know leh it seems like forever (its only like i have not seen them for about a week only)

Anyway, today God is there in the CG meeting........ (as if He is not there every meeting....) LOLX

Ha ha but His presence is very important for me these cos its really getting more and more diff to walk the walk esp when i tend to use my own understanding n strength and always think that i can do it one........ but sometimes, the walk is just too much to take liao........

He refreshes me and reminded me of those days when i also thought that i could not make it n how he pulled me through........ He also reminded me of the promises that some i have forgotten as its been like not coming to past.................

I am still a daughter of God n most importantly is that i can do all things thru Him who strengthens n always stayed with me......

At least now the walk is a little better n smoother to walk..... but........................

Add Oil lor....................


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Still trying to ...........

Monday, October 1, 2007

Am super irritated and angry and disappointed and yes am crying when i am writing this blog........

was just emotionly uncontrollable over things that just happened......................

how can one be so irresonsible???? i really cant understand that..................... yes ppl are born to be diff and not perfect but at the very least, the minimal requirement of a person is to be a person (a human being) not unless u have given up to be a human being.................. but after all these years of living are u telling me that u are living in vain???? living for nothing or living just to suck other ppl who loved u dear dry to core......... Y do u have to keep hurting ppl who are trying to love u over and over again..... looking at the state you have become..... what can be worst than this??? don u have any sense of shame whatsoever??? don u have any conscious of your doings???? don u know that u have made me lost all the trust and respect i once had for you????? y do u have to keep doing things that hurt the ones who have been trying to forgive and move on with life......... cant u just wake up and get help...... u are seriously a nobody....... but yet u don even know that u have destroyed every single inch of respect i had for you...............
u have done it all.....................

i just find it so super hard to forgive and forget................ God pls give me strength to overcome this problem.......................... it is just so super diff to do so......... yet in your word, yes i must forgive my enemy but deep inside my heart i really don wan to have anything to do with him anymore but yet i cant shake off the relationship and the blood that runs in me......... i am tired really tired.......................

Forgive and Forget..................... Still trying very hard..........................


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super tired ....


so super long never update liao...

i am not dead hoh................................................

just trying to play deaf and mute about something that is not running very smoothly........

sian to the max.....

updates....

1)went to see 2 movies both i give 9.5/10 cos very the good....
a) "the-rat-cook" (cos i forgot the movie name)
b) 881 (which says Singaporean movie cant rock have no standard) i cried from the start to the end and almost everyone in the theatre went out with swollen eyes

2) my dai dai (bai lao shu) passed away peacefully (i hope) during one of the thunder storm night, i think he was scared to death, ha ha ha ha

3) started working...... endless stress...... endless scolding from almost everyone........ endless completion from my partner ....... endless worries about my performances......... endless learning outsomes......... endless........ endless.........

4) booked my holidays (A YEAR IN ADVANCE)!!!! can u believe it........ anyway hopeful i am able to go for the Asia conference that is going to change my life.....

5) finally played deng long after so long [simply no one wans to play with me even my cousins..... "u are too big to play liao" :(] anyway, my beloved CG helped to fulfil this playful dream of mine....... we even played sparklers and we end up have lots of them and u know what we polluted the area with the smoke we created... Oops sori..... lots of mooncake to eat till i puked.... don know y but this year simply no mood to eat mooncake though its not my fav food but cos its seasonal mah..... :(

6) very demoralised with my members in the ministry, they simply just make it harder to help them in the walk in serving God..... Attitudes determines your altitude if you are looking for a convi way to serve God then i think u beta don cos there is simply no such thing as a convi way out of life.......

7) <> "if you ask for patience, God will not give you like that but God will you the chances to polish your patience skills" these woards just keep coming back to me over the past weeks when i am dealed with really unreasonable and very diff person in work in life in ministry, well i did ask for patience and anger management though still need some more polishing but i Thank God for holding me back many many times and removing me from getting anymore troubles


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